Changing Directions

 

 

 

New Year's Day January 1, 2015

age 39, size medium tops, size 8 dress/pant size, 161.5 pounds

It never ceases to amaze me how fast time flies.  Often times I wish life would slow down because everything seems so fast paced and I find myself struggling trying to keep up.  Then there are times where life can't move along faster (longing for the end of school year aka summer break).  I've fully yet to learn to leave it all in God's hands/take life as it comes and I'm convinced it's the primary reason for stress and anxiety.  I made alot of poor personal choices in 2014, and being that I know better then I ought to do better.  Thought that approaching 40 I'd have myself "more together", but I'm optimistic and know I'm a work in progress. 

 

Some people believe making New Year Resolutions are a waste of time.  Maybe because there are goals set forth but never achieved then later deemed "unrealistic"?  I digress, but he reason I've failed in achieving some is for one I never had a proper plan in place.  Creating that plan takes setting aside the time to plan, focus, motivation, and patience.  The resolution/goals also have to be measureable.  My resolutions are attainable, but I need to secure a plan in place to ensure they are measureable because I've ALREADY broken a few smh....here goes: 

 

Resolutions 2015

1. Prepared on Saturday night to make it to church ON TIME EVERY SUNDAY
2. Current on mortgage
3. Stay on top of children's grades
4. Medical Bills Paid Off
5. Tithe
6. Paint/Repair boys' bathroom
7. Finish Deck
8. Repair damages in my home office
9. Make time to sketch and sew once at least once a month
10. Read bible daily
11. No procrastination
12. Kitchen Repairs
13. Plan a family vacation/couple vacation
14. E.N.C. (personal)
15. Be more patient/speak more calmly to children

And bear in mind this is a "running list", but I think once I get measures in place it'll be enough to keep me occupied.  Hmmm....on second thought, I've leave it at this.  Cool, I just noticed 15 resolutions for the 2015 year.  I also just realized how I didn't include exercise more/eat healthy.  I admit I like that fact because those things are already incorporated in my "normal" routine.  I've literally been on a 15 year weight management journey, and though I don't necessarily feel like I'm "out of the woods" I do have a fairly decent handle.

 

 

Having said that, I'm going to close out this blog.  I need to really shift my focus on my personal and family relationship with Christ.  I'm certain everything else will definitely fall into place.  I'm grateful for God's mercy for not giving up on me.  Life is filled with so many ups and downs, but so much stuff we tend to bring upon ourselves.  I'm not certain if I'll create another blog.  The one I really need to create is one focusing on financial freedom. Benificial, but the thought of it bores me to tears lol.  The other one I'd passionately like to return to is my other blog Sew Determined.  Excuses suck, but it's challenging finding the time to devote to it.  OAN, I really love the motivational poster below, and the way it can apply to anything in life.

 

 

My highest and lowest weight on the Phentermine Journey
July 2013- 206 lbs
August 2014- 154 lbs



My lowest weight while on the Phentermine journey was 154 lbs.  It was a bit startling to see my weight reach to a point I hadn't seen in well over 2 decades.  Lemme tell you I didn't stay that size very long either.  I think I'd completely cut sugar out and even went a day or two not consuming meat.  Prior to getting down to that size I thought I was gaining too much weight Summer 2014.  Looking back, I don't know.  I know I went swimsuit shopping but had the PMS bloat and became discouraged.  I began the Phentermine again and lost 14 pounds in one month.  I felt frail and had the whole bobblehead thing going.  The Phen also caused my blood pressure to skyrocket which worried me because I was taking it while not under my doctor's supervision.  So after 18 days of a 30 day rx, I quit taking them.  I like to think definitely for good.  I'm grateful for the results they provided me, but taking weightloss meds not fully knowing the long term effects just doesn't sit well with me.  I've managed to maintain my weight between 161.5-165.  I had a little gain between the Thanksgiving and Christmas months, but I've worked them off being that I'm off 2 weeks for the winter break.  The new gym I joined somehow sent my body into a shock where the pounds fell off.  I still struggle with a few target areas such as my midsection, but all in all my weight insecurites no longer hover over my head like it used to.  The key to maintaining my weight is monitoring caloric intake, better food choices, incorporating my 100 minute fitness regimen (weights, cardio, sauna), and the occasional hour long jog/running the benches at the track.  My weight is ideal, my BMI is normal, mission accomplished, and having said that I'm out.  Adios!