6 Week Post Phentermine Update



 

I'm maintaining my weight fairly well considering the fact I've had a few minor binge eating episodes.  I'm also dealing with some personal issues that's eating at me, but I believe I'm getting a handle on them.   I have to admit to feeling very overwhelmed.  Last week my calories averaged nearly 2000 per day.  Even worse I only exercised 1 1/2 days. I know it's a result of my poor coping skills, but I'm in the process of regrouping and more self-aware.  The above picture was taken yesterday-- 14 years after giving birth to my firstborn.  I remember my post partum weight being around 215 pounds November 1999 I believe but was convinced the baby weight would "fall off" the way it happened with my college roomate (who was 19 when she had given birth).  That was so not the case and so began my yo-yo dieting journey.  I did manage to lose some of the weight thru diet and exercise, but lo and behold I became pregnant with my 2nd child December 2000 and the process started all over again.  My goal is to maintain a weight between 160-165 pounds, and judging by the photo I defiitely need some help in the toning department.

 



Friends and siblings celebrating my oldest son's (seated teal shirt) 14th birthday!



Welp, the foods served at my son's birthday gathering got the best of me! I'm not all and out disappointed with myself, but I wish I had showed a bit more self-control. I found myself stuffing myself only because the food was there and not necessarily because I was hungry. His birthday was one serious cheat day and my weight today reflected 165 lbs.! A weight I haven't seen in nearly a month. Well today is a new day and I am getting back on track....

Okay so I've made it thru all 3 children's birthdays, halloween, and next stop Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years! Lord willing I'm allowed to live to see these upcoming days, I want to exercise discipline and moderation.







1 Month Post Phentermine Update

Halloween 2013
163 lbs.

One month Post-Phentermine I somewhat managed to not make this year's Halloween a complete epic fail! I tried to refrain, but my dad brought candy for the children, and yes I indulged.  His defense for not purposely sabotaging my efforts is that the treats are for the children and not me as if my hyper children need sweets, lol!! Well, I indulged that Thursday AND Friday evening.  The guilt hit me so hard that I had my husband get rid of it all (even though there was little to get rid of omg, smh).  Times past whenever I'd have weight loss success, the holidays starting with Halloween would always be the starting point of when my weightloss efforts decline.  This continues ALL the way into the New Year.  Even though I can feel the day to day and Holiday stress approaching, prayerfully I'll have a handle on things.

I really had my concerns because just as I managed to lose 20 pounds the first month while on Phen, I wondered if I would easily gain one month off!  My appetite has returned, but nowhere near what it was in July which is possibly attributed to my stomach now shrunken.  My doctor's appointment is scheduled next month, so I'm uncertain if the drug is still in my system.  I caved in and not only increased my daily calories by quite a few hundred, but I've also allowed foods previously not allowed in my diet such as cheeseburger, french fries, indulged in sweets, and a mega bite of my hubs italian sandwich (pepperoni + salami) along with potato chips.  One thing I have to admit was how it was sooooooooooooo good, but hopefully I'll get a better handle on things and will try not to let my calories exceed 1500/per day.  Seriously at one point last week, I couldn't stop eating so I just gave up even counting the calories SMH!  I still managed to work out 3X which is still a good thing. 


The picture shown above is a comparison shot of my October measurements a couple of days after I ended the Phen compared to being off of it a month.  I wasn't sure what to expect until after I compared both pics. The tricky part I'm trying to closely monitor is the gradual weight gain creep.  It used to get me every time, lol!!  I did suprisingly manage not to gain in any of the areas, so hopefully I can keep this up!  I set 160 pounds as my goal weight, but I'll be content if I can stay between 160-165.  My absolute limit is 170, maybe 175 but nothing more!

 

 Two things that are current staples in my diet and my absolute favorites pomegranates and the fiber one 90 calorie carmel chocolate pretzel bars. I really need a life because that is the highlight of getting off work and coming home to eat those things!  It really does beat leaving work and eating the huge 2 layer oreo cake like I used to do, so hey!  I once had a pomegranante YEARS ago found trying to eat the fruit very difficult and messy so I refused to ever buy one again.  Well while grocery shopping a few weeks ago, my son begged me to buy one.  My husband cut it up so I decided to give it another go.  It looked so good.  Well this time around, spitting out the seeds were a bit annoying but not so bad.  Something clicked so I did a little research to see if the seeds were edible.  Well I found out they were and even beneficial so voila!  I now eat the fruit seeds and all!

 

 

Regarding whether or not the weight loss has improved my attitude.  It's hard to say.  Overall I'm elated with the results, but it sometimes feels weird being asked about it several times a day IDK.  Overall outlook and moods?  Sorta going thru the motions right now, but I know that's part of life.  It feels good not having to concern myself with being overweight, but now it seems I'm overly concerned with maintaining.  Such narcissism!  Hopefully, that too shall pass. I'm a work in progress...

 

 

I never did get around to posting myself in last week's 1995 teal green sheath dress I can now fit.  I was so anxious to get out of it last Sunday so I could eat that I didn't wait around to take pics, lol!  I'll do it sometime this week and will upload it with the 1996/2013 picture of me in it.  Milestone for me I have to confess!