6 Week Post Phentermine Update



 

I'm maintaining my weight fairly well considering the fact I've had a few minor binge eating episodes.  I'm also dealing with some personal issues that's eating at me, but I believe I'm getting a handle on them.   I have to admit to feeling very overwhelmed.  Last week my calories averaged nearly 2000 per day.  Even worse I only exercised 1 1/2 days. I know it's a result of my poor coping skills, but I'm in the process of regrouping and more self-aware.  The above picture was taken yesterday-- 14 years after giving birth to my firstborn.  I remember my post partum weight being around 215 pounds November 1999 I believe but was convinced the baby weight would "fall off" the way it happened with my college roomate (who was 19 when she had given birth).  That was so not the case and so began my yo-yo dieting journey.  I did manage to lose some of the weight thru diet and exercise, but lo and behold I became pregnant with my 2nd child December 2000 and the process started all over again.  My goal is to maintain a weight between 160-165 pounds, and judging by the photo I defiitely need some help in the toning department.

 



Friends and siblings celebrating my oldest son's (seated teal shirt) 14th birthday!



Welp, the foods served at my son's birthday gathering got the best of me! I'm not all and out disappointed with myself, but I wish I had showed a bit more self-control. I found myself stuffing myself only because the food was there and not necessarily because I was hungry. His birthday was one serious cheat day and my weight today reflected 165 lbs.! A weight I haven't seen in nearly a month. Well today is a new day and I am getting back on track....

Okay so I've made it thru all 3 children's birthdays, halloween, and next stop Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years! Lord willing I'm allowed to live to see these upcoming days, I want to exercise discipline and moderation.







1 Month Post Phentermine Update

Halloween 2013
163 lbs.

One month Post-Phentermine I somewhat managed to not make this year's Halloween a complete epic fail! I tried to refrain, but my dad brought candy for the children, and yes I indulged.  His defense for not purposely sabotaging my efforts is that the treats are for the children and not me as if my hyper children need sweets, lol!! Well, I indulged that Thursday AND Friday evening.  The guilt hit me so hard that I had my husband get rid of it all (even though there was little to get rid of omg, smh).  Times past whenever I'd have weight loss success, the holidays starting with Halloween would always be the starting point of when my weightloss efforts decline.  This continues ALL the way into the New Year.  Even though I can feel the day to day and Holiday stress approaching, prayerfully I'll have a handle on things.

I really had my concerns because just as I managed to lose 20 pounds the first month while on Phen, I wondered if I would easily gain one month off!  My appetite has returned, but nowhere near what it was in July which is possibly attributed to my stomach now shrunken.  My doctor's appointment is scheduled next month, so I'm uncertain if the drug is still in my system.  I caved in and not only increased my daily calories by quite a few hundred, but I've also allowed foods previously not allowed in my diet such as cheeseburger, french fries, indulged in sweets, and a mega bite of my hubs italian sandwich (pepperoni + salami) along with potato chips.  One thing I have to admit was how it was sooooooooooooo good, but hopefully I'll get a better handle on things and will try not to let my calories exceed 1500/per day.  Seriously at one point last week, I couldn't stop eating so I just gave up even counting the calories SMH!  I still managed to work out 3X which is still a good thing. 


The picture shown above is a comparison shot of my October measurements a couple of days after I ended the Phen compared to being off of it a month.  I wasn't sure what to expect until after I compared both pics. The tricky part I'm trying to closely monitor is the gradual weight gain creep.  It used to get me every time, lol!!  I did suprisingly manage not to gain in any of the areas, so hopefully I can keep this up!  I set 160 pounds as my goal weight, but I'll be content if I can stay between 160-165.  My absolute limit is 170, maybe 175 but nothing more!

 

 Two things that are current staples in my diet and my absolute favorites pomegranates and the fiber one 90 calorie carmel chocolate pretzel bars. I really need a life because that is the highlight of getting off work and coming home to eat those things!  It really does beat leaving work and eating the huge 2 layer oreo cake like I used to do, so hey!  I once had a pomegranante YEARS ago found trying to eat the fruit very difficult and messy so I refused to ever buy one again.  Well while grocery shopping a few weeks ago, my son begged me to buy one.  My husband cut it up so I decided to give it another go.  It looked so good.  Well this time around, spitting out the seeds were a bit annoying but not so bad.  Something clicked so I did a little research to see if the seeds were edible.  Well I found out they were and even beneficial so voila!  I now eat the fruit seeds and all!

 

 

Regarding whether or not the weight loss has improved my attitude.  It's hard to say.  Overall I'm elated with the results, but it sometimes feels weird being asked about it several times a day IDK.  Overall outlook and moods?  Sorta going thru the motions right now, but I know that's part of life.  It feels good not having to concern myself with being overweight, but now it seems I'm overly concerned with maintaining.  Such narcissism!  Hopefully, that too shall pass. I'm a work in progress...

 

 

I never did get around to posting myself in last week's 1995 teal green sheath dress I can now fit.  I was so anxious to get out of it last Sunday so I could eat that I didn't wait around to take pics, lol!  I'll do it sometime this week and will upload it with the 1996/2013 picture of me in it.  Milestone for me I have to confess!



Maintaining Post Phentermine

17 days Post Phentermine
October 19, 2013

 

I'm excited and somewhat suprised to share that I am maintaining my weight post-Phentermine. Actually I've lost a few pounds since weigh-in 2 weeks ago.  I was a bit concerned with the cravings I experienced when I ended the Phentermine run, but it was all related to PMS I'm certain.  I've managed to still record my daily calories increasing them by a few hundred each day.  Doing so actually suprised me that I'm still losing.  I've allowed myself to indulge in a few sweets, but really not much.  My diet still mainly consists of turkey, chicken, fish, and occasionally beef.  Sugary drinks aside from occasional orange juice are still off limits.  The 5X a week scheduled workouts are proving to still be very challenging, so lately its only been 3 days a week.  My next plan for November will hopefully be to start with a fitness trainer.  I really want to tighten up my arms and flabby stomach. Overall I'm content because I like what I see in the mirror, and it was sooo satisfying having to shop for SMALLER bras and clothing.  My weight has come down from a size 16/18 to a size 10/12 and I love it!  It's also brought about a possible dream job opportunity that I'm PRAYING will work out.  Icing on the cake was that I found a size 10 sheath dress that I've held onto since at least 1995.  The cut is classic so it's really not dated (at least I don't think) lol! I plan on wearing that 18 year old dress tomorrow woooot-woooot!  I've never ever been able to fit it I'm certain since 1996!!  I'll try to post 1996 and the current pics tomorrow!

 

Phentermine Week 12



Phentermine Week1

Sorry I'm late posting, but things have been so very busy.  I'm still in awe regarding my 12 week/40 pound weight loss.  Struggling to find clothes in my closet that aren't to big has never been an issue, but it's now one!!  Having the tendency to be somewhat shy, I have to admit I'm a little flattered by the attention by the younger and older.  The weightloss was such a success that I need to purchase nearly an entire new wardrobe, BUT I'm still hesitant since I'm  officially off the Phentermine.  The doctor prescribed another 30 day refill, but after taking 62 days worth (2 months/2 days) I feel it's time to give my body a break. 

Even though I've reached my weight loss goal, I've got a few new challenges set forth which are maintaining and toning!  I've been monitoring fairly heavily and haven't noticed much change in terms of weight gain in the 10 or so days I've been off.  I've sorta slacked just a bit counting calories, and working out 5X per week has proven to be very challenging so maybe that may explain why my weight gain has fluctuated 1- 2.5 lbs. since being off?  I think that it may be attributed to PMS symptoms since I did end my Phentermine run a few days before the start of my cyle.  I noticed that my appetite had increased, and all I wanted was Mexican Food (major PMS craving).  Another thing I noticed was the extreme fatigue which I'm uncertain is related to PMS or a side effect from no longer using the medication.  Back to maintaining and toning--  I understand there are lifestyle changes that will need to be incorporated into my life, but I have to ask myself do I really have a full understanding?  All I know is that I'm terrified of reverting back to old habits, and I try my best to avoid them all.  Seems like the tempations hit me from left and right such as colleagues and even restaurant servers encouraging me to have a drink and whatnot.  The full on sweet cravings haven't really hit me yet so I'm thankful for that. 

I'm fully aware that I'm not a fan of strength and conditioning training, but that's gonna have to change!  I met with a personal trainer last Saturday and he gave me a 10 minute mini-session.  Good grief, he was tough.  His services were very steep, but I'm gonna try to find a way to incorporate it into our budget and hopefully start things up in November.  I have alot of loose skin as a result of the weight loss and really need tighten up my stomach and arms.

Not sure if I'll keep the blog updated monthly or bi-weekly, but I'll continue to post updates of the good, the bad, and the ugly.

Week Ten Update

Phentermine Week Ten

 

 

 

My intention was to update Saturday, but I ended up posting today.  I lost 6.5 lbs since my last photo update and so ecstatic with the progress.  It's relieving not having to deal with that constant bloated feeling and always feeling blah.  I have to admit that overall I feel great and still in disbelief!  Losing 36 pounds in a matter of 10 weeks is something I've never experienced, but I have to admit I have my concerns. I have a doctor's appointment scheduled tomorrow afternoon to check my blood pressure and to discuss whether or not I continue the final Phentermine 30 day dose.  I'm on the fence as to whether or not I should.  If it's affected my blood pressure, then I'll have no choice but to stop.  I first set my goal weight to 160 lbs.  I'm certain I'll meet it within 3 weeks if I remain on the medication, but I'm sorta curious to see if I could do it on my own.  BUT my biggest concern is if I will have any withdrawals once I'm off whether it's this week or after the yet-to-be determined final 30 day prescription.  The holidays are approaching...stress, indulgence, the whole nine yards!!   Praying for discipline...

 

Another thing is that I'm really strugging with the M-F 5X a week A.M. exercise regimen.  I was so busy last week with work and home that I only managed to work out twice.  Afternoons are completely out the question, and I avoid working out Saturdays because I have so much on my plate. Yesterday I was supposed to make an exception.  Despite my motiviation, I had so much to do yesterday and just couldn't find the time SMH!  I did work out today, but IDK...I rather not make it a habit and stick to the plan.  One thing for certain, the two times last week I did exercise were quality workouts.  A girlfriend suggested I tone up.  I told myself I would once I hit 165 lbs. and focus on the weight lifting to bring me down to 160 lbs. (maintaining from there.) That'll mean decreasing my cardio and upping the time for weight lifting.  I'm somewhat open to the idea.  I love the rush cardio gives because I find weightlifting dull, but maybe I'll have a change of heart if and when the time comes. 

 

 

Will the Old Habits Resurface??!! Praying this Won't be an Oprah Moment!!



"Skinny" Oprah 1988 and a couple of years later post weight loss

Last night, I was trying to figure out how to correct the time stamp for my online/phone app food journal/calorie counter/weight tracker I use (and love).  The start date reflected a 7/12/12, but I wanted it to reflect 7/12/13 (the designated date I decided to use as my so called "official" weightloss journey.)  Being that I'm somewhat anal, it bugged me to see it reflect the incorrect year.  Once I figured that all I had to do was delete the old and sporadic entries prior to 7/12/13, I was able to update. 

Looking at them, I was shocked because I had sort of forgotten the details of my high calorie diet.  I then sort of snickered because I didn't think my diet was all too bad when it really was excessive. I thought things were sorta okay especially since I had resumed an exercise regimen.  Convinced the medical procedure I had January 2013 was what I thought caused the weight gain despite the doctors saying it wasn't. 

The prescribed Phentermine proved me wrong...so I have to confess that I was in denial. Maybe in my defense I could say I simply forgot the exact amount of food I'd consume on a daily basis which was excessive!  Nonetheless I had to quickly check myself for snickering because that large amount  I consumed daily felt normal.  I oftentimes wonder if it's mind over matter, but the Phentermine gives me a sense that have I have things completely under control.  Will this be an Oprah moment circa 1988 once I'm off the meds?  Will that bold hunger return because my diet was seriously off the chain!!  I like to think I've learned my lesson so I can avoid all those pitfalls that happened last school year, but only time will tell.  One day at a time, right?

My Typical  Diet 4/19/13-4/22/13 (before Phentermine)

 

My Current Diet 9/8/13-9/11/13 (after Phentermine) 

 

Body Measurements July-September 2013

Yesterday I weighed in at 172 pounds and decided to set 160 lbs as my goal weight.  I first thought that would be a little too thin for my frame, but I've been overweight the past 15 years that I considered it somewhat normal and learned to live with it.  Actually, my BMI will be 23.6 once I reach my goal weight which is actually within normal limits.  I'm having to make a complete lifestyle change, and I'm praying that once off the Phentermine I will be able to maintain on my own.  Here's what I've had to cut out:

• Pork
• red meat (limited consumption)
• sweetened drinks
• no high calorie sweets (cakes)
• fried foods
• chips
• alcohol
• breads

My diet has been limited to 1200 calories because I'm pretty on top of counting and measure out nearly everything.  I do plan on increasing my caloric intake to maybe 1400-1500 calories once I'm off the medication.  One thing I'm convinced of is that I will forever count calories.  I now see I have to treat it like my checkbook...always having to record transactions, budget, and balance.

OAN-  Weigh-in is scheduled for next week

Week Eight Update / 20 Year Class Reunion

Phentermine Week 8

 

Only 3.5 lb. loss since the last update, but I'm not complaining!! I made a comparison shot digital collage reflecting my progress since documenting July 12th.  I'm pleased with the 6 week/overall 25 lb. weight loss!!  Thank you Jesus!
 

 

 

 

 

Hail to the Black and Gold!  Little Rock Central High!

 

I was really going back and forth trying to decide whether or not to attend my 20 year class reunion.  I can't pinpoint why I was feeling a certain way. I know the previous school year (referring to my job) had been a total bust so maybe I forecasted that I'd have the same mindset once reunion weekend would take place.  Being overwhelmed and overweight was NOT what I wanted to bring to the reunion!  The mixed feelings did change days before the reunion, and I ended up having a great time connecting and reconnecting with my class.  My classmates all looked great and being that a beloved classmate passed 2 weeks prior made everyone there genuinely connect.  Kudos to the reunion committee because they went over and above organizing things!  Knowing firsthand organizing a reunion is no walk in the park!  One thing for certain, I could NOT keep up with all 7 activities scheduled that weekend, but I had a very nice time attending the ones I did!!  I was exhausted and needed an extra day to recover!!  Here are a few pics--  *sidenote* Since I'm such a homebody and can be a procrastinator, my outfits were picked hours before the reunion activities.  Although kinda cute, I wore myself out with that last minute shopping SMH!

LRCH c/o 1993 20 Years Later

Yours Truly September 1, 2013

The Hubs and I attending the Reunion Banquet September 1, 2013

August 31, 2013

May 1993/September 2013

August 31, 2013

 

 

Week Six Update

Phentermine Week 6

I'm still hanging in there exercising, counting calories, monitoring my weight, and tracking progress.  It's been exactly one month since my last post, and I must admit it's quite challenging trying to keep the blog updated. Things have gotten fairly chaotic since the school year started and seems like we're constantly on the go!  I'm ever learning to keep a cool head, stay in prayer, and take things one day at a time.

Analog Girl In a Digital World...I still use a written planner to juggle life

 

 As you can see I'm still taking photo updates every two weeks, but I had to switch to taking them on Saturdays instead of Fridays.  The mad dash getting the children off to school and us to work is the reason for the switch. I can tell things have definitely slowed down in regards to weightloss, but not too slow because I still managed to lose 5 lbs. since the last update. One thing I've noticed now that school has resumed is the struggle to maintin my exercise schedule.  Things were elaborately planned to be in bed by 10 PM and up by 4:30 AM Monday thru Friday.  That way it would ensure a good night's rest and at least a full hour for exercise!  Wrong!  The first week of school I managed to work out 3 days, 5 days the second week, only 2 days the 3rd week, and 4 days the 4th week of school.  --Which isn't bad, but I'm nowhere near getting the full hour.  I'm not beating myself up too bad, but I'd still like to establish a consistent routine.

Back on the Grind...I'm usually not always this moody looking.... 



Birthday Hurdles and Temptations

Don't Let This Sweet Face Fool You!

My 12 year old son's birthday cake

Okay, something has to give!!  I'm presently tormenting myself all in the name of LOVE.  Let me clarify that it's all in the name of love for my family and cake!  Background:  For as long as I can remember, my first birthday gift request was to have a "store bought" cake! I delighted in the bright colors, pretty flowers, and seeing MY name cursively decorated on the cake.  I so looked forward to that special time of year when I could sink my chops into the sweet vanilla icing (whipped or butter creme) and spongey white cake.  It always made me feel special.  Believe it or not, I never had issues with weight back then (and in fact I was always teased about being skinny), so my sweet natured mother always obliged and would purchase me a cake. Talk about gratification! Bear in mind this sweet request didn't end with my childhood!  It continued well into my college years.

Once I had the means to do so on my own, I would occasionally purchase vanilla cupcakes.  There didn't have to be a reason to "celebrate" either.  I just simply wanted cupcakes, but I didn't do that too often because the guilt of eating 3 cupcakes in one sitting made me feel so blah.  I soon discovered local bakeries sold cupcakes in single servings, and I would reward myself whenever I had a stressful day.  Bad habit I know because it inevitably contributed to my weight management struggles.

So when the time came to celebrate my own childrens' birthdays, the first thing I did (without being asked) was to ensure they had a "store bought" cake.  I've gotten somewhat better over these past 13 years by not buying large cakes, but any size cakes are setbacks for me. 

 

Getting Ready to Sing Happy Birthday to My Handsome Tween



Birthday cakes are traditional worldwide, and I LOVE seeing the priceless look on my family's faces when the candles are lit and we sing happy birthday to them.  Is that such a bad thing?  I guess what I'm despising right now is how I'm allowing my son's birthday cake to torment me.  The Phentermine is making things somewhat bearable, but earlier today I was almost ready to throw in the towel!  I'm telling myself it's mind over matter because I don't need it, but if for whatever reason I was given the green light I would DIG right into that cake with a big scoop of vanilla ice cream on the side! 

Birthday Celebration Collage

I'M starting to wonder if the only way to get a handle on controlling my weight is to avoid sweets altogether.  So I'm guessing there will be no cheat days ever!  Seems like once I indulge, I'll want it everyday.  I gave myself a small pat on the back today when I avoided the bowls filled with mini candy bars placed on our teacher meeting tables.  Considering how I love Snickers, Twix, etc. it wasn't too terribly tempting, but I'm still glad I didn't eat them out of boredom or habit.  The leftover birthday cake is what's giving me a run for my money, but I've got a simple solution.  Future birthdays will only include a collosal cupake divided between my kiddos or mini-individual cupcakes found at Whole Foods Market.  Problem solved!

Week Four Update

Phentermine Week 4

I have to say I'm very pleased with my progress so far!  Whew thank you Jesus!  Hard for me to believe the weightloss would happen this fast. The stressing, worrying, and not to mention the discomfort from carrying the extra weight was definitely my downer.  The Lord definitely heard my cries, prayers, and answered them.  I visited my doctor the other day and was approved for a refill for the Phentermine.  He noted my blood pressure was slightly elevated but still within the normal range. 

Now that my summer break is over my classes will resume here soon. Trying to mentally prepare because I know my will power will be challenged.  Dealing with all the hustle and bustle of parenting, and the never ending chaos that comes with working in a public school lets me know I'll most definitely be in for a treat (NO PUN INTENDED LOL)!  I'm certain the true challenge will happen once I'm officially off the medication, so we'll see!  I'm praying I've learned moderation and bracing myself for when the cravings are said to return.  One day at a time is all I can say.  Gotta remember that it's MIND OVER MATTER.  The things I'll need to remember (which I believe) that aided in my weightloss are:

• Eliminate pork- That was a difficult one and it took me a while to do, but quitting was not as bad as a thought. 
• Limit red meat- That was even harder which is why I limit it.
• Limit starches
• Limit breads
• No sugary drinks (orange, grape, apple juices are kept to a strict limit) and if I do crave a sweetened drink, only a few drops of a water enhancer is added to my water
• Drink plenty of water
• Exercise 5X a week, at least 1 hour per day
• Count Calories
• No alcohol or medication other than the Phentermine
• No fried foods- grilled and baked only
• Fruits!  Watermelon and peaches were my summer favorites
• Prayer, prayer, prayer

Twenty pounds lost within a 4 week time frame!  I'm still in disbelief!  The Phentermine without a doubt aided in those efforts, so prayerfuly now that I have a jumpstart I'll be able to manage once I'm off.

Reflection: Dealing with the Ups and Downs -- Literally and Figuratively

I took a moment to re-evaluate my recent eating patterns prior to taking the Phentermine and gained a little insight.  Convinced I have occasional short term memory, I'll often times jot my weight in my appointment calendar.  --Very useful when tracking possible progress.  My planner reflects the typical busy and stressful life of being parent, wife, and teacher...its sort of a "better than not using anything at all" method to keeping a handle on the pre-arranged chaos.  I'm very aware that there is a found connection of finding the time to exercise, not monitoring my caloric intake, unpredictable events, and my way of dealing with it all....which was that I emotionally ate to my poor heart's content! 

Flashback to late January 2013.  My weight was at 193.5 lbs, and I was disappointed (but forgiving) that I had gained roughly 25lbs. within 7 months!  Devastated, yes, but still convinced a new year would bring renewal and refocus!  I managed to lose 18 lbs. between late December 2011-May 2012, so I knew I could do it again.  Somehow or another I lost that refocus and ended up gaining another 3lbs two months later. 

Spring Break 2013, 195 lbs.

Still determined I told myself Spring Break would be a great time to solidify that exercise regimen.  I exercised but still not as often as needed.  My avoidance to do the tedious calorie counting didn't help my crusade whatsover, and I continued to gain.  So my weight during the entire month of April and May fluctuated between 204 and an unsteady 198.5 pounds. 

Still trying to remain OPTIMISTIC (there's that word again), I told myself June 2013 would be the perfect time to devote complete focus.  School's was out for summer break!  Sweet!  I have to confess that I was in complete denial regarding the reasons for the weight gain.  Convinced that it was primarily due to a surgical procedure done mid-January 2013.  There were even online forums with women claiming similar weight gain resulting from the same procedure.  The doctors claimed there was absolutely no connection, but I wasn't buying it.  Despite exercising at least 3X a week I continued to gain weight!

So now I'm perturbed!  Despite my amped up summer exercise regimen, the scale still steady crept up 8 lbs in a month's time!  I had become certain that I would average a 5 lb. weight gain per month, and crushed thinking there was nothing I would be able to do about it.  It all seems very vain I must admit, but carrying extra weight has always been discomforting.  I can't explain why emotional eating  has always been a source of comfort. I could never really find that happy medium, so instead I indulged and believed exercising alone would refrain excess weight gain.  The thing was that I never found the time to do enough exercise to make up for all that emotional eating!!

Some interesting things I now realize since starting the Phentermine was the severity of my eating habits.  I knew my diet wasn't perfect, but I didn't think it was that bad.  Afterall, I rarely ate fried foods or drank sodas, BUT I made up for it in other ways.  I LOVE bacon, sausage, sweet ice tea, sweet drinks, mexican food, snack foods like potato chips with french onion dip, treating myself to fresh frozen custard topped with chocolate toffee and nuts once or twice a week, and margaritas on my treasured no-kids allowed bi-weekly date nights just to list a few.

So VERY LONG STORY SHORT...

I calculated that in early July (pre-Phentermine)  my calories averaged 2110 per day and I burned about 450 exercise calories maybe 3-5 times a week.  Not too bad if I wanted to maintain 205 pounds, but I don't!  That's very excessive for someone wanting to lose weight.  I should've know better, but I now average 1090 calories per week and burn 500 exercise 5 days a week.  It seems like a great plan, but it's unhealthy.  I tire easily by evening and it's just unrealistic to maintain long term.  I've yet to learn, smh.  The thing with Phentermine is that it makes me to have to remind myself to eat, and I sometimes won't eat until I'm about ready to pass out!  In a sense that's not so bad because in the past I'd eat whether or not I was hungry, BUT truthfully its's bad because I can imagine overeating if an eating schedule isn't developed once the drug is out my system.  I must admit it's a relief to not be so food obsessed and having those intense cravings.  Those PMS cravings are always no joke.

My doctor's appointment is scheduled tomorrow to make sure there are no adverse affects from the Phentermine usage.  I have about 5 more days until my prescription runs out and not sure whether or not my doctor will allow me to continue another month.  Either way I will soon be on my own.  Summer Break is just about over and I will be reporting back to work soon and dealing with all the madness!  Only time will reveal my coping mechanisms.  I know I'm only human, but I have faith.  OAN, the PhentermineWeek 4 Update will be posted this Friday...

Week Two Update

Phentermine Week 2

 

I'm so stoked that I'm FINALLY seeing positive results with my weightloss efforts.  Matter of fact I've lost 11.5 lbs since my last post 2 weeks ago!  I'll try to provide updates with pics every two weeks whether or not I win, lose, or draw.  It's been somewhat challenging, but I'm determined.  There's been a few obstacles that really tested my discipline and self-control, but overall I'm pleased with the way I handled them.  

 

The first one was hosting a family day weekend outing which of course involved fattening foods and sweets that I'd normally avoid buying.  We hosted the day after I started the Phentermine, but suprisingly it had already kicked in and killed those cravings I'd normally have.  Whew!  One of my biggest challenges is that I have the tendency to overeat in family/social gatherings. 

 

The second challenge occured the following week.  --Now keep in mind everyday is a challenge, but these are what I consider the not-so-usual ones.  Anywho, my daughter celebrated her 7th birthday with a playdate.  Cheap route I know, but I needed this to be cost efficiencient and no fuss lol!  I figured that since the only ones attending would be her playdate, playdate's mom, my son, and grandparents then a 9 inch birthday cake would suffice (also hoped I wouldn't get tempted to have a slice).  Wrong!  Everyone (with the exception of the 3 children) were watching their weight and either had a very tiny slice or nothing at all!  So I indulged in that greasy pizza, ice cream, and cake that afternoon and that night, smh!  I'm trying to really limit if not eliminate sweets.  The cravings are SO hard to overcome, and once I have a taste I feel the need to eat it everyday :-(.  Adding a bit of insult to injury my dad visited later that evening bearing additional sweets.  I know he means well, but an apple pie knowing I had homemade vanilla flavored ice cream left from the birthday playdate??!!  Aside from indulging in the foods I should be avoiding, one of the good things that resulted from efforts was that I did manage to work out 5 times that week. Also, I managed to stay mostly within my allowed caloric intake and lost 6 lbs the first week. 

Baby Girl's Birthday Cake

July 19, 2012
 

Look who's 7 years old!

 

With her birthday playdate

 

 Now the third challenge proved to be the absolute most difficult since starting the Phentermine while closely counting calories and sticking close to the exercise regimen.  VACATION TIME!!  This summer's vacation destination was New Orleans, and words cannot describe the good time we had!!  Even though it was a fairly short vacation I'm so grateful to have those memories!  I fell in love with the culture and without a doubt THE FOOD!  I read that over time, the appetite suppressing effect that the Phentermine provides diminishes.  Easy come, easy go I guess because I can already tell it is!  It's not as potent as it was the first few days of taking, and the sad part is that in a sense I didn't want it interfering with me enjoying that Cajun cuisine!  I tried my best to behave, and I did in a sense BUT the food was so rich & aromatic that I couldn't resist.  We all sampled of off one another's plate during mealtimes.  Everything was so delicious that self control would not be in my vocabulary if for whatever reason I had to move there!

 

New Orleans Seafood & Hamburger Co.

July 24, 2013

Just Me ready to dig into that meal. 

The hair has to pulled back before devouring!
 

My Sons -- talk about night and day personalities!
 

One of the few times my daughter made a "happy plate" the New Orleans food was just that good!

The upside to that was, like I mentioned earlier, I am SO determined believe it or not. I exercised the nights we stayed using the hotel's fitness facility and worked up a great sweat I must add. We also walked EVERYWHERE so I hoped I burned a bit of those meal calories there, and last (which is sort of funny) was that I thought I had misplaced my digital camera on a park bench. My husband found a city ranger to ask questions and find directions, so I excused myself to have a seat. Once he finished the conversation-- and with a given map in hand, we headed out to walk the French Quarters. The heat had me a bit scatter-brained I guess because after we walked a good distance, I thought I left my camera on the park bench! I FREAKED OUT and darted back in that 95 degree heat! I was in straight panic mode because for one the camera had cherished memories, two- I paid a pretty penny for it, and three I had some noneofanyonesbusiness stored on the camera! Once I made it to the bench and didn't see it, I just knew that camera was as good as gone until I looked deeper inside my tote and found it!! I was so embarrassed BUT relieved! My family was hot and flustered when they realized I had it the whole time, but I saw nothing but good because my camera was in my possession AND I had a chance to burn a few extra calories ;-)

 

New Orleans July 24, 2013

Feeling the best I've ever felt in quite a while ;-)

Just Me Again!

Evening Out on Bourbon Street

July 24, 2013

 

I hope I have disciplined myself to not exceed my daily allowed calories once I end this Phentermine run. The truth will reveal itself once the doctor takes me off. I have a feeling he will not refill my 30 day prescription. I've read a few forum postings on how cravings coming back far more intense resulting in immediate weight gain. The back to school stress and work always have taken it's toll in times past, so I'm counting on prayer, self control, continued exercising, and calorie counting to help me maintain once I achieve an ideal weight goal.

 



 

New Orleans Street Musician Perfoming the Wedding March Song for Me and the Hubs

July 24, 2013



Well...I DID NOT Expect THIS to Happen!

 
Phentermine Day 1
 

  Whelp it's been a little over a year since my last entry, and it's been quite a roller coaster ride to say the least!  I had reached a point just within the last week where I felt I was at my wits end not knowing which direction to take regarding my current weight situation.  I gained ALL my weight back AND THEN SOME!  Directing back to the title post...I DID NOT expect THIS to happen!! Things were going fairly well with my exercise regimen with me often times exercising twice a day.  I managed to bring my weight down to 177 pounds and even found the courage to put on a bathing suit Summer 2012--  a one piece of course. We planned a family summer vacation and even though my weight had crept up to the early 180s, I managed to sort of maintain.

Family Vacation Summer 2012, 183lbs
 

I wasn't in the best of health due to female medical issues, but I kept pressing.  I felt more confident and had a sense of relief returning back to school that Fall. Having passed all my teacher certification exams, I now felt that I had a better handle and would be less likely to indulge in the so called emotional eating.  Looking back, I remember feeling all mellow and collected in the below pictures haha!!  There I was, ready to start my 5th year of teaching and now had a little bit of experience under my belt.  My classroom was clean and organized, and I was ready to begin a new school year!  I should've known better because Murphy's Law was in full effect and things went downhill from there!

Few Days Prior to the Start of the 2012-13 School Year

 

 

First day of school, and I was having problems with my vehicle engine!  I thought taking it to a local mechanic instead of the dealership would save me money.  Wrong!  Paid for the so-called repairs and continued to have problems.  I ended up taking it to the dealership, and ended up paying 3 times the amount of the given estimate.  Live and learn I guess, but the emotional eating had been triggered.  That beginning of the school year "honeymoon" period where students are somewhat behaved didn't last long either, so having to deal with behavior issues started brewing.  Even though the stressful week and a half dealing with my vehicle and being out of nearly $900 dollars, I thought the worst was behind me until....

Damage Resulting from Water Heater, September 2012



Our upstairs water heater busted and flooded our entire downstairs living area.  It happened late that night and was a total nightmare!  The carpets, ceilings, lesson plan materials, etc were all ruined.  I had to call 911 because my husband and neighbor couldn't locate the water shut off valve.  Watching the water gush from the ceilings and indoor light fixtures had me certain someone was going to get electrocuted that night.  Once the firemen left and the arrangements were made with the insurance company, the emotional eating was in full swing!  I was completely overwhelmed.  I no longer had time to exercise, and my new focus became dealing with the damage and searching for qualified repairmen.  One thing is for certain is that LIFE DID NOT STOP!  We were constantly on the go and always exhausted. 

 

 

Throw in a couple of classroom altercations, middle school drama with my own children, emergency room visit after passing out, various personal drama issues that both affected me directly and indirectly, and living in a home/disaster area my stress levels shot through the roof! The holidays and all the binge eating that entails didn't help either.  My coping skills were sub par, which I believe led me to make some very poor choices regarding my physical health and mental health well being.  I became very reclusive and was always irritable.

 

 



The 2013 New Year was ushered in with poor eating habits.  I had to pull the larger sized clothing from the back of my closet because I could no longer fit into my smaller sized clothing.  Even though I attempted to exercise during the 2 week winter break, it was impossible because we had the first Christmas Day snow in decades and was without electricity for days!  I then ended up having to have a medical procedure late January 2013, but promised myself that I would lose the nearly 15 pounds I had gained once I recovered.  I was trying to remain optimistic and monitor my food intake, but my weight kept creeping!  I researched to see if it had anything to do with my medical procedure.  I came across numerous online forums filled with women who had the same medical procedure and was seeking answers regarding the same weight gain I was experiencing.  The doctor's office informed me that it had nothing to do with the procedure because it shouldn't have interfered with my hormones, but I was convinced it did.  I continued to gain weight each week.  Midway thru March 2013 I had reached 195 lbs.  My intent was to finally refocus and use the picture shown above as my "before" picture convincing myself I'd have the weight lost by the summer.  I indicated the days on my calendar when I exercised and continued to monitor my intake, but I STILL CONTINUED TO GAIN WEIGHT.  Friends said it was due to my age, but I thought it was related to the surgery.  Looking back, I don't know.   All I knew was that I needed to get a handle on it and fast!

Spring Break March 18, 2013

 

 

Late Spring 2013, 200+ lbs

 



Spring was here and my weight reached the 200s.  I was devastated and depressed.  How could this happen??  One of my students slipped my IPhone off my desk and snapped my picture (obnoxious thing to do, I know), but I wasn't happy with my ever expanding waistline shown in the photograph.  Again, trying to remain optimistic I convinced myself  I'd refocus come summer.  Despite my 5 day a week exercise regimen I STILL CONTINUED TO GAIN WEIGHT!  The endless research, frustration, irritatability, avoiding social activities, and depression all got the best of me.  I tried to wait visiting my doctor until my scheduled annual OB/GYN visit, but I couldn't any longer.

First week in July- One Week before starting Phentermine

 

I let him know I was gaining weight pretty much on a weekly basis and was not showing any signs of letting up!  That week alone it had increased to nearly 5lbs! I explained my frustration and shared my exercise regimen with my doctor who did what I thought was unthinkable.  He wrote me a prescription for the weight loss medication Phentermine. When I gave birth to my 2nd son a little over a decade ago, I asked for a prescription weight loss medication to speed up my efforts.  He refused because he didn't feel comfortable with the side effects knowing I was under his care.  He's had a change of heart I guess.  I am relieved to say that I've lost 6 lbs since visiting my doctor 4 days ago!  The medication also affects the serotonin and dopamine in the brain, so along with suppressing my appetite it's also elevated my moods.  I have all this nonstop energy and I'm definitely not as moody.  The side effects (dry mouth and insomnia/anxiety) are somewhat of a nuisance, but I can learn to live with them if I continue with these results.  Today was my first day exercising since taking the medication, and it's definitely helped with that 3AM anxiety/insomia edge I'm experiencing since starting the meds.  The medication is meant for only short term as they lose their effectiveness over time.  I'm reading stories how the weight came back with a vengeance to those who didn't develop better eating habits, so I'm praying the same doesn't happen to me if I do lose the weight.

I never thought I'd be happy to say my current weight is 200 pounds, but I hope to share some photos of my progessive weightloss efforts.  God bless.